I’ve recently become very uncomfortable about being easy to find on Google. That is, if you entered my first and last names, you’d find all kinds of things: dead websites, Twitter, Facebook and Myspace profiles, and the Blogger blog. From there, every other result is hit or miss, but there’s enough out there on me if anyone wants to cyber-stalk me.
OK, cyber-stalk is too strong of a term and it’s self-flattery for me. The only “cyber-stalkers” I know of are a few friends who told me about using their “Google Dirty Fingers” and someone who had some romantic interest in me and used the Blogger incarnation of my blog to feel close to me. Relatively harmless.
Then there are those kind of people I’m not at ease with seeing any of my online manifestations: bosses, students, some colleagues, HR analysts/specialists/coordinators/any other over-elevating term for functionaries who play on the Internet when they should be doing work. Any of these parties could easily take offense to what I post and use something I’ve written against me.
One solution I could have used early on was anonymity. Of course, there’s no guarantee here, as the Phantom Professor lost her job at a certain school over her observations of students and colleagues a few years ago. This and many other work-related blog stories are enough to chill anyone off of blogging anything interesting at all.
If I knew about these issues, then why did I even put my real name on the previous incarnation of ShindoTV and other Internet things that would show up in the Google search? I wanted to get my name out there as far as my writing was concerned. Glory hound, as Chris would put it.
In this present version, I don’t have my real name listed. I simply post as Shindo. I’ve been considering de-naming some of my online stuff. I just wonder how long it will take for a lot of my real name to disappear from Google’s search results.
However, Shindo doesn’t completely anonymize me at all. One could easily tune in by chance, read my entries, and infer it’s me. Plus, the link is set on my re-direct page on my old blog and it’s on my Facebook profile and other web profiles. I still want people to come here. I also want to make interesting content.
If I have to exercise self-censorship in some areas, that is not the death of creativity. Gripes and venting are tempting because they create posts that are interesting in the short term. Everyone tunes in because drama is interesting, but then they go on with their lives and will move on to the next shiny thing. The flip-side of drama is that it gets old fast. As for people who frustrate me, I have to consider that they are not worth my airtime. Lots of other things are worth my attention, such as things that actually interest me and generating original content. If I find the sources of frustration too irresistible, then there’s the medium of fiction. For that, the “small penis rule” comes in handy. In other words, use a detail that would be too embarrassing for “the muse” to admit.
I don’t think I even have to go that far. Lack of imagination has never been my problem. Plus, I have plenty to post, especially as I plan to launch one of my creative projects in September. I don’t plan to stop anytime soon.